Posts Tagged ‘whelmed’

Remember that stress I was telling you about? Well, I wish I could say it had subsided, but I’d be lying.

And apparently I’m not very good at hiding it either. BNF told me this morning that my face looked like “a bundle of nerves,” which, I suppose, is technically accurate, too.

(Side note: I wish my face also showed him how excited I am. But apparently it can’t multi-task.)

I’ve found that when it comes to wedding stress, like with most things, you can divide reactions into two categories.

First, you have the traditionally supportive group. These are the friends, co-workers, and parents who ask you how you’re doing. And they accept it when you say, “Everything’s going great – I really feel okay.” But they’re also not surprised when you go on a ten minute rant about all the little things that you know no one is going to notice but you.

In fact, sometimes they tell you, “I think you needed that. You looked too calm.

And then you have the other group, who likes to “lighten the mood.”

These are the friends and family who joke, wouldn’t it be funny if [nightmare x] happened? Or, wouldn’t it be funny if so-and-so stood up during the ceremonyI could totally see that happening!

Or, the text message I received from my younger brother (an usher for the wedding) yesterday.

They scheduled me [at work] over the weekend i cant make it…sorry.

Now, did I, for one second, believe that it was true? Of course not.

Do I want to smack him anyway? Maybe just a little bit.

Will it stop him from making jokes right up until the ceremony?

Not a chance.

I just hope he remembers this when it’s his turn.

*A coworker shared her favorite piece of advice: “‘Worry until Thursday,’ because after that you really can’t change much. You just have to let it happen.” So that has been my mantra. 

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Dear Jefe,

I know you didn’t notice my meltdown yesterday because you were too busy changing every insignificant detail of your presentation. You barely noticed the fact that I was still in the office more than two hours after I should have left, and you actually left before me. I’m sure you had to hurry off to an econ class, as well.

I don’t mind making changes. I actually enjoy working on these presentations because they’re good exposure to all of the surveys we do and the information we collect. What I don’t like is how you still don’t understand that every time you say, “Let’s just put an extra space in there,” it means more than the five seconds of work you think it’ll take. Every time you ask me to create a new chart, I have to do it from scratch, and that takes time. Sometimes, with the things you ask, I think you think that PowerPoint is magic, or that I am, but neither is true.

Though I’ll take the compliment.

I have tried to explain to you that I am working as fast as I can, and trying to accommodate your every whim. Please understand this.

And next time, if you could let me know about any changes before the day you’re supposed to leave for a conference, it would really help with me keeping my sanity.

I don’t think my benefits cover crazy.

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I am excited

…to be running another marathon.

…that the predicted temperature at start time is 49 degrees.

…to listen to all of your song suggestions.

…to see the signs that spectators have come up with this time.

…to have a Marine put my medal around my neck.

…to celebrate with friends after, and indulge myself with a day off on Monday.

I am nervous

…that I won’t fulfill my 25 for 25 goal, of finishing in under 4:58:57.

…that I’ll throw up right as I’m getting my medal.

…that I’m not as ready as I think I am.

…that anything that can go wrong, will go wrong.

I know that I’ve prepared for this race more than the one back in March. I’ve done twice as many long runs. I wasn’t sidelined with an injury. I know, logically, that I can do this.

But the nerves are taking over for now, so all I can do is just breathe.

While I’m psyching myself out, hope you have a great weekend and Happy Halloween!

(And, again, let me know if you’ll be out Sunday morning. Like I said, costumes are welcome!)

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I was all set to have a great day today. I woke up early – on my own, no alarm. I walked to work in this gorgeous weather, and even made it in early. The girl whose work I’ve been covering brought me in an entire case of diet coke (I’m addicted) as a thank you. It was shaping up to be a good day, indeed.

And then El Jefe had to step in about 15 minutes into the work day and blame me for oversights that I was not responsible for, but that he’d rather pin on me than on my supervisor. And because of said oversight, he felt the need to reprimand me for a lack of attention to detail, when I’ve actually been working my ass off for the past three years to pay attention to details that he doesn’t even recognize.

But I digress.

Since I don’t think I could formulate a full post without ranting (any more than I already have), I leave you with a video (that I shamelessly stole from a friend‘s Facebook page).

I’m not sure how I feel about Aurora as Regina George (Sleeping Beauty is my favorite), but overall, I love it.

I’m a mouse. Duh.

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So, as I’m sure you’re aware of by now, I’ve been a bad little blogger. I suppose you could say that I took snow days to mean no work and no blogging. But we’ll remedy that this week.

To get back into the swing of things, as much as I hate starting off the week with complaints, that’s what I have. Rather, it’s not so much of a complaint as it is a holy-shit-did-that-really-just-happen? kind of thing. This past Friday night I was fast asleep in my cozy bed, dreaming of…well, that’s not important. What is important is the waterfall-esque noise that woke me with a start at 3:00 in the morning.

To be honest, it took me several minutes to register where the noise was coming from. And then several more minutes to rouse myself enough to investigate. And what I found looked like this:

There is some sort of silt/sand/gross stuff leaking from my water heater. Awesome.

That’s right. A busted water heater in my closet.

It took me about another ten minutes to move all the crap that I store in that closet into the tub, to keep it from getting any wetter – or destroyed.

And then another ten minutes to find somebody who works in the building to help me. When I found him, he informed me that not only was the water heater flooding my apartment, but that it had spread the wealth by dripping into every apartment below mine, down to the first floor.

I live on the seventh.

Finally, the maintenance guy got up to my room to assess the situation and determined 1) that he’d need the wet vac, since the water had soaked the carpet, pooled in the closet, and was quickly spreading throughout the studio.

It might look like shadows, but it's not. Unfortunately.

And 2) that he’d be replacing that water heater the same night.

I determined that I wouldn’t be getting much more, if any, sleep that night.

Before he started with the wet vac or replacement

By the time he was done, it was about 5:30 in the morning. He left me with a new water heater (plus), but not before telling me that the carpet was soaked through so badly that it would have to be entirely replaced…but that it couldn’t be done until sometime the following week (huge HUGE minus). So, not only is my tub still full and my carpet still soaked, but, frankly, the apartment is starting to smell from all the dampness. Not good.

Thankfully, I’ve been able to stay with a friend my boyfriend while I await news of when this will all be taken care of. And, as much as I want it all fixed, I don’t relish the idea of having to box up all my things and move out my furniture while new carpet is laid down.

I know I just recently wrote about how I always try to look on the bright side, but I’m having a hard time here. Does anyone else see a silver lining?

Please. Enlighten me.

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Last week a friend’s gchat status was this:

I could really use a hug and a xanax.

And now I’m stealing it.

I, myself, am fine. But some of my friends are not. And it runs the gamut from “you’ll get over it” to “that sucks” to “holy shit, this was never supposed to happen – why can’t we fix this?” And frankly, I feel helpless.

So, I’m throwing it out there. Whatever you believe in, if anything, if you could just throw some prayers, thoughts, good karma, etc. their way, I would appreciate it.

I have to believe that every little bit helps.

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I feel as though I am behind in the Christmas holiday spirit department. I posted yesterday about my procrastination in buying the Secret Santa gift. (Thank you all for your ideas, by the way. Absolutely phenomenal.) But that’s only the tip of the iceberg.

  • I haven’t bought any advent calendars this year, and we’re halfway through the season. Last year, I had one for home and one for the office. And one that I gave away. You know, to spread the seasonal cheer.
  • I haven’t set up my nativity scenes. I have two, one from Mama, which resembles a pop-up book, and the other that I bought back in February, from a little market in Buenos Aires. But have I set that beautifully-crafted, hand-painted, complete-with-livestock crèche out on display yet? No, of course not.
  • I haven’t made my traditional Christmas cookies – shortbread, lace cookies, and meringues. (Or the gingerbread train that I bought the other week.)
  • I haven’t put any other decorations up in my apartment.
  • And I haven’t even begun to shop for my family and friends. (Which will probably result in this again.)

Something is just not right. It’s not that I’m anti the holidays this year; I just feel like I’m too busy and they’re coming too fast, and there’s still so much to do.

Is it just me? Or is December going by a lot faster than expected?


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